tired of this

[A_goodman]

Thanks Pup. Good point on the insticts. Like I said, a jedi I am not. I will re-double my efforts to quit trying to reat her mind.

You know, when I am concious of what I am doing, I do an ok job of this. The problem is that all the things we need to control are insideous. You drop your guard for an instant and you are singing the "I screwed up" blues.

Every aspect of our personality that made us mates (attentiveness, affection, reading moods, caring about their happiness) are the things that we need to harness and withhold. Add to that that they know (or even unconciously know) what buttons to push to manipulate emotions like anger, concern, pity etc. And it requires intense self awareness and control to avoid the misstep. It gets tiring.

I can see why we need to excercise and be physically healthy.

I'll keep working.

oh BTW, I DID re-read it. Another thing stood out. I did not drop the F bomb on her. I have been very careful to try and avoid harsh words. Funny though, in hammering it out here, I was really angry and let it vent more than during the actual conversation. I guess that's a positive.