but i don't know what my "compassionate" look looks like. i'm also concerned that his posture/look might throw me off and trigger me to dig. because i'll be trying to negotiate in good faith and if he gives me a hard time just out of spite, i will be discouraged.
Understand that trigger. What is it really? Here lies snakes. Do you see it? Is the "dig" healthy at this stage of your life? Drop the rope so you can handle it no matter how he responds.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.