This is the feeling that catapults you out of the grief and mourning phase. You get to this phase when you are ready to see and accept what's in front of you and not what you thought you had in front of you.
I hope that's true Romeo... I can see that is what is happening.
We had a very calm and productive conversation about finances last night. It is upsetting that NOW he is willing to talk with me about this when I have been desperate for his help for over a year and he absolutely REFUSED to even discuss it. Our financial sitch has been on my shoulders alone while he carried on his A etc. Unbelieveable.
Anyway, now he is being oh so agreeable and helpful. Whatever. Each day that passes I am losing more and more respect for him and am looking more and more forward to being free from him.
This morning I woke up and I actually felt.... relief, I guess is the best way to put it. As my eyes are being more and more opened to his true character and the degree of selfishness by which he functions, I am more and more relieved to not have to deal with that anymore.
I am starting to realize I rationalized a lot of very unacceptable behaviors because I loved him and our family so much.
Yup. Relief. That is the best word to describe what I am feeling.
