As far as the journal it is just in a notebook that I found that is in a file cabinet. I am using the information in that to make me better for her. I learned a great deal on how she was feeling in it, this was necessary to change my approach as she never discusses her feeling with me until it is much too late.
I know that it might bite me, but it is just a journal, and there are no deep feeling from her in there unless she is journaling on how much of a jerk I had been to her, many times without me knowing I was. Other than that it is mostly a list of activities she did during the day.
I appreciate your concern, but in my mind, the ends justify the means, which is a great relationship going forward into the future.
