Long Distance Issues.....Possible WAW

[Dazed&Confused]

Thanks Puppy/LRT. Its just hard to get them to answer. I have called muliple, left messages, and emailed probaby a dozen of them already. Remember, I am overseas, I can't just drop in and make them talk to me.

You have motivated me, though, I am going to continue to call and email until someone gets the hint. What I am confused about though, is what can I contest? Believe, me I wish there was something that I could, but she doesn't want anything. She is not going to give me full custody of the kids, and I couldn't do that to her even if I wanted to.

I guess I just feel like she has all of the power and I do not have any, other than time. Time is the only thing that I have on my side. I could drag my feet on this, but I am worried about the consequences. I am going to wait until her meeting today with a lawyer and see what she has to say. Her tune could change dramatically. I almost wish it would, so that I would having something to fight for.

I feel myself giving up, and I do not want to. Just like anyone here, you can only fool yourself for so long. Eventually it sinks in that you are not in control of your sitch, you are only in control of yourself. I can not give her anymore space than what she has. I can only wait so long until it will become my decision to agree with this nonsense, or tell her that I am not going to make any decision until I get home.

At that point I would have to start playing hard ball, and be prepared to not see/talk to my kids for extended periods of time. I would have to lock down all finances, make her scan and email me any bills so that I could pay them, and let her know what life is going to be like on her own. What kind of an option is that? Then I would pretty much be saying, yes, go ahead and hate me, and try to take my kids away.

These games of real life poker suck. I do not know if I am cut out for it. There is going to be a fork in the road in my near future, and I am going to have to make a decision. Hopefully it will be the right one. I just wish I could be home when it came.

D&C