h having a for 3 yrs very sad

[A_goodman]

Dolph,
You came to the right place. A lot of folks will give you some really good and positive advice on taking control of your life back. In the mean time, read the other threads. They will have a lot of similar stories at different stages of their development. You will learn a lot!

Understand that the things you are urged to do are going to seem totally backwards from what you want to do. Give it a try. You will start feeling the affects in as little as a few weeks.

It's going to be hard work and it's going to hurt some. But you have nothing else to lose.

Sorry to have to welcome you here, but it will be good for you. Promise.

Good luck.