Kevin, I hear you're having a bad time right now. I understand. I also hear you're staying away from these boards a bit because they can be depressing at times. You're right, they are at times. (so many good, decent people in deep pain) I take a break every now and then, myself (just did, as a matter of fact).
When you and I met at your NYC gig, We clicked (even though we both agreed I monopolized the conversation! ) I have your cd. I listen to it often because it is good, you are talented and I always think when listening, "hey I know that guy!"
The hardest part is the kids. I know. I went through it once when my sons were 14 and 11. And today, when my stepkids who I was devoted to for almost twenty years have shut me out.
My sons shut me out for a while the first time. X kept telling me, "they'll be back." They came back. Why? Because full-time, pre-D and part time post D, I was the best d@mned Dad I could be. In challenging moments, I would take a deep breath and tell myself two things: 1) "You are not raising two children; you are raising two men." 2) "What kind of relationship do you want to have with them years from now when they are men?" Act accordingly."
Today, my two sons, 31 and 34 are the two closest relationships in my life.
It works out. Trust me.
Just looked at my cell phone and saw that I do have your number from that night in NYC . I will call you early tomorrow evening.
Peace,
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
) I have your cd. I listen to it often because it is good, you are talented and I always think when listening, "hey I 
