Irish, I know it is hard. As each day passes through this stuff it is like we have to start over building a strong wall back up again. Take some comfort in knowing the man you knew is not present right now. I keep seeing that in my wife and at least I know I am not nuts. When their behavior is so much not like them it is like a reassurance that they are not who they were. Then this nightmare starts making sense. Pay attention to the little things in life that bring a smile to your face. You can always come here and vent and you should. Do you ever wonder what is in their head that is so painful to them? I wonder that quite a bit. I guess we should not wish pain on anybody but when we are in pain it's got to make you think, what could possibly be more painful than what we are going through? I hope my wife shares some of what was in her head someday so I can make some sense of this after the fact. I have a lot of book reading to do on MLC and some here have some insight to this. Your time frame and age of this is so very similar to mine. I have seen changes from the beginning of this up to now. Things are a little better now but I keep reading that things got to get worse before they get better. Not very reassuring I know. I do see that the more you GAL, the better it is to get through this. You are making it though. I see strength in you that is going to get you through this!!
