I am so glad you're feeling better. Once one starts planning, then it starts to feel that one is going to make it. The lake place sounds cool. I would definitely look into that.
So, it wasn't like you had an addiction issue with porn. What the hell! How can they possibly use that? Ugh, but these lawyers can twist things, so your lawyer better be able to come up with counter explanations. In fact, the truth sounds pretty good to me.
Your plans for mediation are reasonable and I hope that it doesn't have to come before a judge, but if it must be, then so be it.
Good luck.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim