Not sure where to start, or end. WAW?

[john28]

Today is a tough day guys - just need to journal a little.

Well, it's been 2 days of solid DB, going on 3 with no mistakes. Haven't called her at all, she's always called me. She's called me 2X each day. Once in the afternoon and once at night.

I'm really missing her now, and I just want this all to get better - but with her so far away and not back to Friday I'm starting to feel the loneliness.

I remember when she would take trips like this in the past to MIL (she took about 6 trips a year, all 7-10 days each) I would feel awesome because I could do anythign I wanted to do for a week and be selfish. But now my mind has shifted and all I want to do is what is best for my family... and not having them here is pretty tough.

I just feel like she's slipping away day by day with me giving her space. It just feels so wrong, but I know that's what I have to do. It feels like I'm losing her one day at a time.

But I also recognize this is a crucial time, with her being away from home for 10 days. I know that if I push her, and be needy, she'll not miss me at all. The problem is, even with me being strong and giving space very well I think she still doesn't even think about me or miss me.