I acted logically today during our "meeting. I was not emotional (haven't been for weeks now), while in meeting or even after it was over. In fact, H asked how I was feeling. I said I didn't wish to discuss emotions. H stated he noticed I no longer blame or say much, that I am correct, that by being positive and not arguing, we will be able to be happy in our separate futures, neither spouse blaming the other. H said I was right in my thinking, become our true selves before we became miserable in M.
H is seeing my changes, twice he has asked about them. I may have given him the impression today, I too wanted out of M. I said I respect him and that M wasn't working for me either and that we both needed to be free to be our real selves. I wanted to state something along those lines, but maybe not quite that way. But maybe it's a good thing I said what I said- both H and I deserve to be happy. I still think we could stay together, but I H is still committed to the "end".
