Cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it

[ImprovedRomeo]

Thanks guys, I appreciate the support! I have come a long way even since a few months ago and I was a total wreck four years ago where I couldn't even function normally. Those times were seriously rough. I remember lying awake in bed all night day after day with my heart beating out of my chest I seriously thought I'd get a heart attack but I couldn't stop myself from feeling that way no matter how hard I tried. I'd start to fall asleep and then my heart would do this dead cat bounce and I'd be wide awake again for another hour...and I had to pretend at work that I was normal. I lost over 20lbs in 3 weeks and I had to force myself to eat.

So there's hope for everyone! And like Alice said it's not just about surviving it's about learning too. I've learnt so much from my experience I wish I knew these things back then what I know now. I still have a loooong road ahead until the D is final and I can't wait for that day when it's all over.

You guys have been so awesome throughout the process, some of you I've known for a long time, some not so long but each one of you has helped me tremendously. Thank you and I'm here for you if you need support or just an ear to listen.