I am usually so level headed and I love being with my D so to feel this way now is so unusual for me and I am feeling so guilty about it. It is just hard b/c I am essentially a single parent at this point b/c the H just comes and goes as he pleases and if I am around there is 0 help with our D from his end. I know that i need breaks b/c it is not healthy for my D. i am becoming so impatient with her and feel like all i do now is yell at her. It is not fair to her or right. I actually said to my mother yesterday that perhaps I shouldn't be her mother anymore b/c I feel like i am not good enough for her and I am so worried that i am scarring her for life.
Children are like sponges and what happens now will likely shape who they become. I obviously don't want to give up my daughter but I can't help but feeling like I am not the best for her right now.
M=42 H=51 Common-law 6yr Children: 11yr old daughter (previous marrIage) 6yr old son Bomb dropped January 2013
