Woke up with mind swirling about STBXW and the fact I could be divorced soon.
For a long time I said to myself I would not go to the day the judge signs off.
Today, I decided I'm going to. Not showing up lets her off the hook. I want to be there when the gavel comes down.
One thing I didn't add from last night is that 37 called. She was going to come to the hot wings challenge but couldn't get out in time. We talked for 30 minutes and she filled me in on her family drama.
When it was over I reminded myself -- in between waves of pain -- that there's no long-term future with 37 and this is just conversation to get me through.
It's just fun to have a female to talk to. This weekend I struck up another text conversation with 31 from the church group. I hadn't heard from her in two weeks. It turns out she lost her phone and all of her numbers.
Back to work and spending time explaining how painful eating volcanic hot wings can be.
Tonight I go through the house I'd like to rent with D8 and then perhaps we'll go swimming. It's my night to have her.
I cover real estate for my newspaper and the July home sales came out today. Without the tax credit, sales plunged more than 40 percent. Average prices are down $15k from two years ago.
What this means is STBXW won't be able to sell that house for a long, long, long time unless the bank is willing to take a significant loss on it.
That puts me in a tough spot. I like the fact she's having to live with consequences, but it's going to be another rope between STBXW and I and another thing to blame her unhappiness on rather than to look at herself.
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