"I'm on the cusp of being depressed enough to affect my functioning in spite of meds. And that's frightening to me."
Hoosier, you're having a rough go and that is a good reason to go and talk meds with your doctor. Sometimes a little increase in what you're taking or supplementing with something else can make a difference and every little bit helps right now. Your doctor can help with that. I'm not saying meds are the entire answer but they are a tool God provides for us in times of need.
