Thanks puppy, you are right - I am being manipulated. The thing is, I know I can do better, but she has spent the last six months tearing me down for every little thing, making me feel like garbage to make herself feel better. She has a huge support group - I have no one. Our MC of two years is pretty useless where I am concerned. She is counseling space, so my wife has left home. Very convenient for her! I have a sticky on my Mac that says: DO NOT CONTACT! NO EMAIL! NO PHONE! I am trying this out, and finding it very difficult. Not only is she my wife, but she has been my best friend for ten years. I have been to the doctor to get tested. She insists that she has been tested (haven't seen any documents, but I am not going to ask her for them because I am not going to contact her). NO CONTACT seems to be the only way to put back some balance into a situation where she has a firm upper hand.
