Rockin' and Rulin' My World

[Nikita Belle]

My current sitch is living in the same house with H but preparing for moving me and the kids out... hopefully within the next couple of weeks.

First of all ((((hugs))) You know me by other names I can't put here, but I'm familiar with your sitch. And I have to say you've given it your all. You can now go in (relative) peace, knowing you fought for your M and - like you said- he's just not healthy to be married to at this time. I am in the same boat as you logistically- getting ready to move, as I have to be the one to move out. It's heartwrenching that we have to do that when we didn't want this to begin with, but as a friend told me, at least it's (somewhat) on our terms.

H had a bit of an emotional meltdown last night.... going on about how it is "killing" him to think of me and the kids moving out and living with my parents.... while at the same time admitting he had lied to me about this past weekend and that he had seen OW! (He swears they are just "friends" now and only hung out together with a group of people. Whatever! )Sheesh!

That is really sad. I am happy to give you the # to 1-800-WAAAAHHH that flowmom gave me for my H. The nerve of them complaining to us! I will never understand that. And I'm glad you're getting out of the house -- especially if he STILL can't even be honest with himself or you about what's going on.

I am realizing more and more every day that he is just not in a healthy place and not healthy to be married to. He needs to figure himself out, and without me to lean on for the first time in 20 years.

I am grieving. But I know what I need to do for me and the kids. And I am doing it.

I just wish I had a time machine to speed things up...

If you find that machine, let me know. You are a strong woman and I know you'll be fine- and you're taking great care of your kids, so kudos to you. I hope you're taking care of yourself, too.