WAW still around, DBing starting to work

[gutwrenching]

In last two days, she may have finally been hitting rock bottom. She asked me for another chance at working on M. I said I would have to think about it but IF I were to agree, then here are the boundaries: transparency on contact with OM, transparency on her getting help she needs for her issues, Retrouville or possibly MC, commitment to work on things over long term, not a week.

Now I am being pursued. She has made herself physically sick. Lots of new phrases being used on our one phone call and multiple texts. Things like I want to fix this. I can't eat, I don't feel like it. I made the wrong decision. I shouldn't be here on my own, I should be with my family. I want to be happy again like we were 18 months ago (finally some non WAS talk...she admits things were good), I don't feel like I've been myself, I deserve to be punished, I have done so much damage, I want my family back. To the family comment, I mentioned the kids would love her to here too, and she replied you too, you are my family too, I want you back.

And I continue to let her stew and wonder. Said I am still thinking about things and I am. I need to see she really means it and that she wants me, not just the kids.