Here goes nothing. My husband and I our high school sweethearts. We dated 7yrs b4 marring. In our 7 yrs of dating wasn't always great but betwwen 5-7 yrs was great. So finally we said I do! Now we have been married for 3yrs. And the first year was amazing. But the last 2yrs has been hell. When we got married we lived with his grandma. It was okay living there but it wasn't ours. She gave us times to be home. We slept in his room all our wedding gifts was down stairs in the basement collecctin dust. She kept the temp n the house on 87. We rosted, we both were going crazy. Me and him talked and thought we needed to get a place of our own, so we did. When we moved out she would call him for everything and then make him feel guilty for not being there. It was begining to put a strain on us. We started fighting more than we should. Not blaming her for anything. Then his beer here and there was becoming 4-5 night thing. About year later his grandma died. And so has our marriage. He turned from cold to ice. He's always partying with single guys and getting drunk. He drives drunk but most of the time he crashes at a friends house. Out of a month he may be at home 7 nights and he gets in after 12. He sleeps on the couch. He's stoped saying I love you. Never calls just a small note on the counter saying when our dog was last walked. He's not abusive physical but is very mental and emotional. Any day he has off he's with the guys. I've asked what about our marriage what does he thinks he's doing to it. I usually get a whatever and I'm living my life having fun and he leaves. I don't know if he cheated he's very flirty and I know he talks to women. He's constanly on facebook. I'm scared he's been my world since I was 17. I don't know how to live without him. I've bought the divorce remedy book but I'm scared to try 180 techinque. Its seems like he's already gone I don't know if it would even work. He has told me he don't want to lose me because I'm all he has. I use to be his world but now all I am is a rug. I know he don't respect me, I've lost it for myself. My self esteem is shot how can u have one when your husband can't stand you? Please help me I'm at rock bottom and scared to death. Tell me how to save my marriage????
