Nothing fits

[mishka422]

Oh how I would love to tell him just that Ali. It's just not that simple.

Case in point.......This morning Gabe went for his walk and I jumped on the eliptical (I would have walked with him but I have Plantar Fascitis in my right foot and walking nearly cripples me). When he came back I told him I was so proud of him for keeping with his exercise plan. He thanked me and headed off for the shower. I finished my workout and I walked into the bedroom as he was walking out. I leaned in to kiss him and he just stood there. No hugging, no response. Like kissing a dead fish. I have told him in the past that when he does that I feel repulsive and it hurts my heart. He said he was sorry but there was no expansion on it. Today when he did it I said, "You know it upsets me when you give no response at all. It screams "GET AWAY FROM ME, YOU'RE ANNOYING!"." He said that's not true and walked off to go shave. I was upset. Being dismissed like that hurt just as much as the non-response. It is history repeated and sent me into a spin. He came back in and immediately told me that he was sorry, he likes it when I kiss him but not all the time. He feels smothered. I teared up but just said, "Ok." He then launched into the whole what's wrong? What did I do? Etc.. This led into me telling him that I am a very affectionate person and that is how I express my feelings.

It went downhill after that. He kept going on and on about how he does nothing right and he is always to blame for upsetting me. I kept insisting that was not the case but that we needed to talk about these things. His only response.....I can't. There's nothing to talk about. The end.

I got in the shower. He left without a goodbye. Period.

So really, there isn't anything left to do is there? Kick him out? Why? Because he has no ability to be open with me? What kind of reason is that to kick out the father of your child?