You have more than survived! You have walked through this and found an inner strength you didn't know you had. And you are moving forward with that strength.
Those bombaversaries are killers. As much as we try to tell ourselves they don't matter and it is a new year etc., there is something about the trauma that just takes us back. I am glad you acknowledged it and let yourself feel and deal with the memories. That is one more step in the healing.
I do believe there is joy to come, for all of us. It is a matter of time.
