i'd like to consider this thread dormant for now. i asked puppy for his input only because he has the most experience in dealing with sitchs.
as he had pointed out earlier, my original thread is long and i do have some really good advice that is helping me focus on me.
i've stopped "handwaving" and will work with the vets who have been with me from the very beginning. i find that too much advice tends to confuse me as everyone has an opinion. i learned that the hard way and it actually isn't helpful to me.
P.S. the emails & texts have stopped. i think he got the picture.