Well, still plodding along...H came to fetch S for school, came about 20 mins earlier than usual,cause he couldnt visit last night,he sat at the kitchen counter while I made S lunch for school, he was a little quieter than usual, the silence really gets to me, so I find myself trying to fill the gaps....oh dear, I know I'm supposed to let him lead any conversation, but I squirm when theres silence, its sheer torture!!! I asked him how work was going : 'its fine'. Hows your mom? Shes fine. mmmm. I knew to stop trying right there, so had to just cope with the horrible silence eek! He made me a cup of coffee, which i thanked him for, and he joked that hes at least useful for something...argh. He feels bad about himself
So then to try combat the silence I started talking to S, and getting him ready for school. Wasnt a wonderful morning
Later in the day I sent him an email saying thanks for the cd he lent me and I joked it was so good he might not get it back. He replied with a double smile (yay!) and agreed it was awsome, said I had to see them live like he did, to which i replied I,ll put it on my bucket list (with a smiley), and he replied laughing thought it was funny, the bucket list So good banter there, at least.
Feeling awful today, have gone off the pill which I was on for years and years, and have headache, dizzy nauseous etc. argh...
So good banter there, at least.