Wife filed for divorce...Is there still hope?

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murrayskeeter,

Thank you for believeing that there is still hope in my marriage because I do not see it anymore. I know that it is always possible. My expectations are that it is over, and we will never be together again. I truly feel this way. I did not always feel this way. I have found that my life is moving forward much more than I thought it would only a couple of day ago.

At a church graduation event for my S and D, something unexpected happened. It caugh me off guard. W actually went which was surprising and unexpected. She seemed to enjoy herself. We talked a little. She even laughed a little during the service and stayed awake too. She was welcomed by everyone, and one lady even asked her to come to a bible school meeting with just ladies. She seemed to enjoy her company alot.

Even more unexpected was that a young woman that I had met just during the last week was very friendly to me in front W while dishing up our food. W was behind me in line, and this beautiful, young lady was helping me and no one else. She ignored W completely, and she touched me on the back, arm, and helped me dish up. She was talking to me so much so touchy, feely that I did not know how to react. It was kind of nice I have to admit. I don't know how W was reacting during this time because she was behind me.

At the end, I said bye to her, and I hugged some of the other woman goodbye, and she came over to say bye again and gave a sweet hug to me in front of W. Maybe it is just me, but it seemed there was some mutual attraction between us. I felt a little strange and guilt at the same time even though I enjoyed it very much. OK, I liked the attention. It felt good.

I am still married, so I did not pursue getting to know her more, but I was for the first time attracted to another woman.

I am just leaving the R talk with my W to none. I just do not want to talk to her.

Thanks for the posting me.