Oh - forgot...had IC session today. I walked in anticipating asking her to contact our MC (we signed releases earlier) - just wanted her to check in with MC about his perceptions, etc. So I walk in and she said that the MC had called her and shared that he thought I was handling the situation as well as anyone and that S was intuitive and recognized that something was not right with his dad. Weird - but grateful.

I've been having these strange visuals of me being very small and H being very large - and me just being relinquished to nothing by his words and actions - that there is and has never been any love for me - basically that I have just been destroyed by all of this. In someways I think this is me just letting go - this is what is left of me and where I have to begin to build myself up again. It's just strange.

Sorry if this sounds all crazy and such - I'm just a little low.

M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years
Ds-24,22/S-18
D - 3/11
A Day at a Time