Beyond Depression..but still a losing battle?

[awest1217]

I can't respond much right now because S has woken up twice with nightmares, I think, and is drenched in sweat, but i want you to know. Don't sweat it. Now you don't have to worry about looking into it. He doesn't want you to see because he is guilty. Plain and simple. Also don't kick yourself for giving in to him. You just started this new boundary, and how many times have I wavered? Many. I said no contact, but then contacted him or no seeing him and then did. It is so hard to break that tie and you can't do it until you are ready so don't worry about it.

Now really try to just pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start again. Make some goals for you. Where would you like to see yourself next year? Not with H or your R, but about just you like will you still be living with your parents? Will you go for your masters? Will you have a new hair style or new dress style? Maybe you will paint your room where you are living? Just focus on you and make goals for you so if H decides to stop being a butt he can join those goals with you or you are already on your way.

Stay strong you are doing everything you can!