And she has said numerous times she wants to date you? What are you waiting for?
What will make you attractive to her now? How did you date her back when you were courting? Why were you attractive to her then?
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.