You made my day, Sad! Just a hello would have made me smile, but WHAT a post!
Yes, when I think back a year ago....(where's the "shudder" icon? ).
The teaching award wouldn't bring me any closer to tenure, being a Contact Lecturer, that is beyond my grasp. So it was more a recognition of my 14 years of consistently top notch teaching. The winner does a lecture for peers, gets $2,000, a photo and write up in the University Annual Report.
I know my teaching style doesn't suit everyone, but when my teaching evaluation AVERAGES work out to 9.2-9.9 on all 10 items, in all courses, with about 500 students per year, year after year....
But now it's not about winning, it's about finding out if the process of selection is even valid, reliable or worthy of my continued entries.
Now the Love letter....I agree. I haven't mentioned a thing and I don't think I will. I honestly don't know how I'd feel if CJ asked ME to do that right now.
Plus it would always mean so much more if it were spontaneous...in fact I just had a CHILLING memory.
Just before CJ finally ended it with OW...she made him write her a letter outlining ALL the things that having been with HER had forever spoiled for CJ.
Honestly, I couldn't even get through the thing...I felt sick (yes she so "kindly" send me an e-mail of this, too). In it he wrote about how he could never kiss another without thinking of her lips...how sunsets would never be the same...how the turning of the leaves in the autumn would remind him of....(and lots of sexual references my lovely adaptive brain seems to have repressed)...
He told me that he wrote that major work of "love lettering" under duress....that he didn't mean any of it.
So on second and third thought, the love letter thing is sounding worse and worse for my sitch.
As for your sitch SAD...can you put your finger on why you feel this way? Wanting to hide out (good work schedule for the purpose!) and such over the holidays?
How's your anxiety doing these days?
As for the gift giving...well I actually had to give CJ his main gift last night...(details on the party in my next post ).
I've been trying to think of things that go with his schooling/job search. I did pick up a really nice 2004 daily minder with note pad, phone # section.
I was eye-balling the world globes they had at the same store as CJ has said he'd always wanted one.
Decorating....well CJ was up before me yesterday (surprised?) and worked on the out door icicle lights. All but one small strand are working so we lit them up last night.
I like the idea of getting something new to put up. We really don't do much besides put lights and decorations on the windows and the tree.
Maybe a nice new wreath? Our walls aren't that tall, Sad, would a footstool work?
You wished us all a Merry Christmas...well I hope you swing back on by before then...it's 11 days away!
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