Goodman - you are not a victim! You are a survivor. You are making decisions for YOUR future and for what YOU want.
As for the past trangressions, my H has many. Some would make you wonder why I have stayed. How I have stayed. Partly because my family growing up was dysfunctional, and partly because I dated for so long and know no R is perfect or problem free, I have greater tolerance for nonsense than others. But the key here is to FORGIVE. Not for them, for you. THat's the only true way to let go of the past and start living in the present so that your TRUE future will reveal itself to you.
You have come so far. Patience my dear friend. Patience.
He: WAH Me: LBW Precious: DD
~ I'm grateful for every day I have to improve the way I relate.