I've said it before and I'll say it again now - you are a very strong woman! Don't be afraid to feel the emotions, but it's good that you are at a point that seeing H and OW together didn't throw you for a complete loop. It's good too that you have that final encouragement to do what you need to do today. I think this weekend has really given you a chance to be insightful too. You have come so far even in the past couple of months to get your self-esteem back and realize the negative impact of H on you and who you want to be as a person.
Regarding telling him that you filed, I know he won't pick up your calls and you don't want to do it via text, but maybe either 1)go visit him in person at his parents or 2)text him to ask him to call you for an extremely important matter. However you do it, even though you're doing the right thing for your sitch, there's right to feel a sense of loss. As golfgirl said above, be prepared for the grief emotions and embrace them as part of the process and then you can start to move on with a life YOU create. Good luck today!!!
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
