HI Cath,

Just got done a 45 min power walk and 30 min of yoga and crunches. And that's on top of 4 hours of shopping earlier!!!

Strange thing...

Several (in fact most) of the things I bought today were for CJ for Christmas. I felt good buying them, I know he'll love them...but then when I got home, there was a misunderstanding about dinner (I thought he'd bought the ingreds yesterday...it was after 7 when I got home...we made do).

And I felt kind of...let down...and this isn't my typical response to shopping, I'm a careful shopper...quality and a good bargains or it's no deal...I usually feel really good about all of my purchases.

Then I figured it out...Gift Giving (one of my LL's) was something CJ used to be good at, was good with OW )...but has been nothing short of negligent about with me over the years. After thoughts, last minute grabs, or stuff I'd told him I wanted.

I have a pattern of being let down by his efforts at gift giving. Although I am gracious, I'm sure this doesn't exactly encourage his efforts.

But as it stands he hasn't bought me a gift about 18 months. That's a Christmas, two birthdays, an anniversary, (I don't thing the 10-year I picked out myself during his A counts? do you? ) two Valentine's Days...

So I need to pull back and detach from that nonsense. And really, we've stopped sharing gifts with friends (it was getting to be too much), siblings, now this year even my folks. We've never been a very materialistic famiy, one year we traded getting gifts for a family road trip.

But for some reason with CJ it just bothers me that he WAS so thoughtful (the yin and yang/interwined serpents antique pin for our one month anniversary! )

And apparently still had it in him a year ago when he bought her a diamond ring...

Oh crap...enough with the pity party!!! It's all those freakin' diamond commercials!!!

It was a loverly shopping day, not too crowded. I found two wonderful bras that fit marvelously (okay, okay I had to go up to a 38 D ), some undies to match. Dark black jeans, and the gifts for CJ (won't mention details...who knows he MIGHT decide to look in one day )

Hard to feel down with the post work out "feel good" juice still flowin'!

Shiny