I struggle with being friendly because I want to show anger even though I don't feel it right now fully. And I guess I'll just do that in therapy.
My memory is so bad that shortly before the birth I forgot what it was like to be with WH. Completely forgot. And now I'm kind of forgetting what he was like in his most awful moments around bomb-time.
I probably developed this through having a BPD with narcissism mother. Really, I probably did!
In thinking more, I do think no OW, adjustment disorder AND the fact that he has been super super sweet since saying he wanted to go to therapy have helped. And there's still an air of mystery around "his side" of the story. I haven't heard it yet, so I can fill-in-the-blanks with things that don't make me mad.
That's what I think.
Phew, gotta go to bed! Except I'm going to check your thread, P, since you got on the boards.
