IB, you are still so early into this and have come a long way.
But you are, of course, still going to have moments of great sadness. This is, after all, a huge thing that's happened.

But I can promise you that you will be able to get through days without crying, then weeks. You will still feel sad from time to time, but, this deep sadness will begin to ebb.

Hang in there, sweetie. You are very fortunate to have such a wonderful, thoughtful son.

You will be ok.