Hi NM. You are so great - thank you for checking up on me!
If you can believe it, I haven't even read my horoscope today. And I usually read Cainer religiously! hahaha!
I'm deflated after last night with Mr. A. I loved it but I really think we need a break from each other. And I need to have my own adventures.
I know I keep coming back to that, but I feel strongly about it. I don't know if Mr. A and I will ever be able to work out our issues. But I DO know that we'll never be on a level playing field if I keep pining for him and letting him have his way with me and he keeps coming back to me like this.
I feel a lot of remorse for what I contributed to our SSM. But I also know I made an earnest attempt to change things before Mr. A left and he opted not to be forgiving.
For the moment, I need to get off this rollercoaster and go SERIOUSLY NC with Mr. A. I miss him like crazy but I'll do it.
