cheated on, lied to, and now I am moving on

[awest1217]

Thanks golfgirl! I don't hear much about the spouse who tried to same the marriage actually filing so it is good to know there are some out there to help lend some support. I also know I may start crying at the strangest times, but right now I just feel like I have really tried everything and he chose this for himself.

Today Sunday School went well, except my pastor ended the adult class early so that forced me to cut my teachers down by 5 minutes, but it all worked out. A little hectic, but still good, and it will get better as I get used to being in charge.

After church I went out to eat with a friend (brother in law's ex who I love to death). Then she, my sister, S, and I went to the beach. I got some sun and had tons of fun! S played in the water a lot more than normal. On the way home there was a terrible accident that slowed us down to go out to eat for dinner. I know eating out twice in one day...doesn't happen much, but it is the end of the summer and I can splurge a bit. We went to TGIFridays and each got an appetizer, entree and dessert for 12.99 each. What a great deal! So my sister ate too much and said she was going to throw up. We were close to OW's house so I said she could puke on her yard. Don't worry I didn't do that, but I think about mean stuff like that. Then on the way home I see H with OW going to a superstore. My sister wanted me to go into the store and follow them. I said no and just went home, but I did lay on the horn and OW saw me.

This is a blessing because since this has happened I have asked God that if I am to D H then I need to see them together in public. I haven't. Not once. Every other person I know has seen them together at restaurants or driving or at the store, but not me. Tonight I did, and I feel that it just helps to take away the doubt I had. I am very religious and want to do what is right. I know Ding is not the best plan because marriage vows are serious, but I feel like tonight I got the blessing from God that I am doing what is right because H is not going to change. Now I don't have the doubt and although it will be hard, I will have an easier time telling H he will be served some time this week.