My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

Thank you for your thoughts, and especially for your interest. Believe me, I have thought about moving away, getting a new start somewhere else--perhaps the town I grew up in, something like that. But I've come to the conclusion that it would only make things more complicated in my life.

I'm hanging onto my house for several reasons. First--we have 3 dogs, to which D14 is very attached, and moving into a rental would almost certainly mean at least 2 of them would have to go. I also doubt that I'll ever be able to buy another house; I'm 54, I've started over in a very similar situation to when I got out of school--no savings, no credit, no family, very few friends; this time I have a daughter I need to take care of. I'm no closer to being on my feet financially than I was when H left, altho I've really given it my best shot and I'm not inexperienced. This house will be very difficult to sell, in a market that's already difficult; there are several empty houses on my street, it needs a lot of work which I haven't been able to afford, and I'd have to take a loss--which I really cannot afford to do. And just moving would take resources I really don't have. Kids do adapt--but mine has some issues that make her a bit less adaptable than the average child. If I was moving to be near family or something like that it might be a different story, but there isn't anyone out there like that. Besides--Indianapolis is a medical town, and I'm a nurse; there will always be jobs here, and that may not be the case elsewhere, especially right now.

So--I realize I sound like I'm arguing, but I'm not really, I'm just trying to explain that I have, indeed, thought this through and come to the conclusion that the best thing right now is to stay put. It's just that I'm running out of energy here, I'm no closer to getting a life than I was a year ago altho I have seriously tried, and I'm on the cusp of being depressed enough to affect my functioning in spite of meds. And that's frightening to me.