Moving On..

[marie2235]

Thanks, TimeHeals.

I didn't think of it like that. I know I can't change him - it has to come from him and he has no interet in changing. He doesn't think he is doing anything wrong and everything that happened in our marraige, according to him, is "my fault", anyway. It's also "my fault" he is cheating, because I "drove him to it" WHAT A ..... I am so glad I see that now.

I like the idea of thinking of it like giving up on a bad habbit - the hardest part is that is was a habbit that lasted 20 years.

I am going to GAL and try to do all the things I have always watned to.

I can't afford a laywer, so I think I will have to just go with making plans that don't include him for now. Kind of pretending he is alredy gone and try not to think too much. I like the steps I have taken and don't want to fall back into the past.

Letting go... one of the hardest things I have ever done. What was that saying on the Disney movie, The Incredables? Something like, "Keep Moving Forward"