i caused the pain

[didthehurt]

i have been lurking here reading the stories for awhiliout , now i would like to share mine. I had an PA before the wife and I had been married. She didnt not find out until a month before our wedding. He have been together since 1991. Dated in highschool. We where married in 2000. in 2006 i had another affair that lasted several months. During this time i got into "adult" chatting online...etc and got into legal trouble for that. She left shortly after. We where seperated for about 6months. She decided to come back. She went to several therapy sessions over a summer, but then stopped. I thought everything was fine. That was 2007. Flashforward to april 2010. She said she was starting to go to MC by herself. I could tell something was wrong. She would not open until i finally pushed the issue, and she said she was depressed and started medication. Last week when I got home from a work trip trip i could tell something was wrong. she had said she wanted me out. we spent the weekend debating / aruging about what has happened. She said that she had never let go of her anger, and that everything she had done should have started to help her heal. she says that she cannot let go of anything that happened. i said that maybe we didnt work on it enough. Now she just wants me gone. I told her that i didnt know that she had been suffereing that much. I asked why she didnt tell me and she said that she just wanted to cover it up and try to just forget about it. i asked her to go with me to a retrouvaille weekend to help get some better tools to help. all she said was that she she would think about it. Anyone have any advice? this weekend she went to her moms. She said she was going to tell them everything that i did. So i asked why she had not done that before. she said she thought she could do it on her own.....