Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

H e-mailed me Friday morning to ask about taking DS today, Sunday. I said yes, then asked if he was ok. He said he was fine, the doctor made it sound worse than it was and they just need to rerun some of the tests. I hope he's not lying to me.

I think in all the time since we changed to this every other weekend schedule H has not once gone the entire Thursday night to Wednesday afternoon without seeing DS. It seems like he always has some excuse to switch nights or get DS for extra time.

DS was not happy that H cancelled on him on Thursday. He is adamant that his father didn't have a doctor appointment, said that his daddy just didn't want to see him. I assured him that was wrong, that daddy really did want to see him but his doctor needed to see him, too.

Took DS to the amusement park yesterday, he loved it. I promised to take him again in two weeks if the weather is cooperative.

Dropped off DS with H today. Before we went DS was saying he didn't want to go, he wanted to stay with me. On the way to the exchange point DS asked if we could invite H on our next field trip to the amusement park. I told him that would probably not be a good idea right now, but maybe some day in the future. DS was excited to see his father and went without any problems. Picked him up at 4, he was being silly and refused to give his father a hug good-bye. H coaxed a hug out of him, and we left. DS asked again why we couldn't invite his father to go to the amusement park with us and I explained that his daddy is not part of our family anymore, that he and I are one family, and he and Daddy are a different family. Kep my interactions with H brief and about DS only.

When we got home DS was upset, said that he wanted to spend all day with me but Daddy time ruined it, that he doesn't like Daddy days anymore he just wants to be with me. I explained to him that his daddy loves and misses him so he should go visit Daddy so Daddy doesn't get sad. Took a bit of coaxing but I got him to understand and calm down. Well, calmed down at least. Not sure how understanding he is being. My kid can be pretty stubborn.