- I don't want to leave the house- he says he is planning to sell it, but that probably won't happen anytime soon. He's too busy running around with OW, and he can't afford to list it right now. The house is in his name, though. My folks put some money toward this house, and we want it back. My dad is looking into possibly putting a lien on the place. At the same time, I cannot live in this town with H and OW running around in it. It's torturous.
- I really am living in limbo. In an ideal world, he'd ditch her for real, come back, and start working on changes with me. I want to fight and save the relationship. I accept that I have a good share of blame for this situation, and can change myself. I don't know if H can change- he blames his problems on me.
- I was planning on getting a full-time job next month, when my youngest will start school. I'd get one right now, but I have literally $5 left and couldn't hire a sitter.
- I would like to expose the affair at his work. I'm not sure how much sympathy I'll get, though- my H is a real 'man's man', his workplace is 100% male, and apparently he's told them all that I'm a horrible person (he said this in anger- 'go ahead, come to my work, they all know what a bitch you are anyway'. I really haven't done anything to him aside from bitch about drinking/gambling/partying, but who knows what he tells them?)
- He is insecure. For sure, and I contributed to that. I understand that that's why this affair started- she approached him and he was flattered. She appreciates him, and I did not.
- I should also mention that he's Canadian military. So the rules are probably different. But the gambling- yeah, still a problem. He's in charge of a petty cash box.
Me-29 H- 28 Together for 6.5 years 2 kids, ages 9 and 5 D-Day: July 15, 2010.
