Maybe its not flirting... maybe H is just really awkward at moments and blushes and gets jittery! H likes playing this mind game thing wth me... strange because H was the one who pursued me for years, and i always said he loved me more... i read it all wrong.
I have to stop dwelling on the little 'signs'. I would need an I LOVE YOU BOMB to be dropped on me, just like the ILYBINILWY he gave me. And... I wouldnt make it so easy for H. He would have to go to IC to figure out why he felt the way he felt, and MC to deal with our R, and he'd have to work so hard at making me want to work at it. He would have to give up a lot in his life, like his selfishness with time and friends and put me first. He would have to WORK to show me he cared even a tiny bit... he'd have to beg and plead and cry for my forgiveness... and dedicate himself fully to R.
He would, above all, need to learn how to communicate... and even after all this, what if i cant do it...
I know he would never do any of this... i'm just saying...
