First CJ calls to rebook his appointment with the Psychiatrist who okay'd him for the depression support group.
I can hear him from where I'm sitting and he says "No, I stopped taking them". So when he gets off the phone I ask him when he stopped taking his anti-depressants.
He said after his first appointment with the Psychiatrist he cut back and then off. He hadn't said a WORD about this to me. He'd mentioned the doc advising him to have bloodwork done (liver function), and said he didn't want to be on them forever, but he didn't breathe a word of this plan to go off of them.
I asked him why he didn't tell me and he kind of shuffled around it, he forgot....
I didn't call him on it, but I should have. Perhaps I will.
I believe, based on A LOT of previous evidence, that he didn't tell me because he was afraid I wouldn't approve or would make an issue of it, he was afraid of my reaction, so he hid it.
THIS IS THE SAME OLD PATTERN FOLKS. :
This man has the memory of 10 women, he doesn't "forget" a whole heck of a lot.
Then late last week we get a phone call (machine picks up)..."Hi CJ this is S...my home phone is.....and my work number is....."
I take him the message, ask who it is. He says YOU KNOW S...(she worked in HR at his old job...had given him some leads on jobs at the College). Ok
She calls again tonight from home. I bring the phone to CJ and ask if he's going to return her call (she sounded more urgent this time, as if he hadn't gotten back to her).
He calls her (must have had her home number somewhere in the stack of papers around him, or on his computer??) and from where I'm working in the kitchen I can hear some of his end of the conversation.
Very friendly, but about jobs, gossip, him being a reference for her for a new job opening. Something about a possible job there for him (..."yeah I could do the job, but would I Want to?)
Some laughter...at one point (I'll whack MYSELF for this one!!!) I would bet that she asked him if he'd had any interesting dreams lately...becaue he kind of chuckled and said ..."No, not lately"...I KNOW, I KNOW that could be in reference to anything.
But clearly she knows about the course he's in...he mentioned being busy with it, but not describing it as he would to someone who didn't know what he was up to.
So what's the point of all of this?
I guess after what I felt like a lie of ommission about his meds, this "friendly chat" just got my back up.
And when I asked him what the call was about all he said (at first) was that she asked him for a reference. (They spoke for about 10 minutes).
He asked if I was OK later (i guess I was quiet?) and for some reason I said "yeah, just thinking about what I want to do"...which was partially true. So I did most of the recycling...but then CJ came up and finished it. Like trying to make amends or something?
Now do I bring any of this up? If I had to choose it would be the meds issue...
