There are several photos I have of us together at events when we were dating, etc. She looks so happy. Beaming smile, just happy.
Then I look at all the other photos, and she's just cold. It's as if after a year of marriage, she realized it was a huge mistake, and was just gritting her teeth. Some of the pictures from the last two years make it look as if she's hating me. I know it's dangerous to try and read her mind. But you have to wonder.
And her current story is that "there's something missing, it's always been missing" so perhaps she actually being honest.
Time to just go dark, love my girls, love myself, and put my trust in the Lord to guide me on my journey.
At this point, I don't even care if there's an OM. It really doesn't affect what I need to do.
My daily prayer-
"Lord, give me the courage to keep my heart open to you and all those around me. Give me strength to carry my burdens with my head held high, faith to know that you'll never leave me, and love for my daughters and my wife."
