So sorry that you find yourself here. I am relatively new here too and this board has many times been my salvation! I think that from what you have written - you are a strong, insightful person who already has a lot of structures in place to make it through. You may often find yourself questioning and confused about your "new" world because it's tough to insightful people when things don't make sense or are not rational. When things don't make sense ~ take a step away and let it go. I have found it helpful to journal and keep little notecards in my purse and such that "simplify" what is really going on. In other words I note what I believe the reality is and remind myself of it as often as needed to make sure I don't get sucked in to my H's MLC crazy town.
My 25th wedding anniversary is in September and between now and then I am documenting in scrapbook and video for myself and my kids our "history" because H has definitely rewritten it. I don't want that to be their legacy.
I hope you find this board helpful - I certainly have!
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
