I think about everyone here too, even when I am not posting.
I know you were afraid of this happening. Funny thing is I did not encourage it. He is the one asking for 1/2 a year to come back. And even so, this time, he was the one who offered to help for a couple of weeks so I could recover. I had no one else.
I'm sure it was so not exciting for him, me being out of sorts, and him being a parent doing everything all of a sudden, after a year of time.
I didn't know why he did it. I guess so he could clarify in his mind that he did not want this life? Of course it would not be fun this way. It's like he's burning so hot to run away right now.
SA, I think it makes a lot of sense what you are saying.
Everyone close to me told me not to get drawn in, I didn't mean to, I thought I could do this just for a couple of weeks and keep my calm and I couldn't. I wanted to believe in him. I still love him. I still don't understand any of this. And I can't get over the hurt he has done to me.
