Went out to see my neighbor's band last night. It was a lot of fun. Stopped in a few other bars too, no really attractive women anywhere, except one who was married!
Toward the end of the night, my friend started talking about my sitch and I started to break-down. My neighbors came home from the show about 2:30am and I went to their place for a while, blubbering like an idiot. I think I needed to get it out. It has been building for a while. Feeling better today.
Going to an old friend's today for his annual summer party and taking the kids with, so I have to be "good".
I just can't seem to drop the rope completely. W was wandering around the yard on the phone this am and I can't help but wonder who she is on the phone with. I saw her out the window and she actually covered her mouth with her hand so I couldn't see her mouth. She was on the phone for at least an hour and just went outside on the phone again. She may have been off for 5 minutes. I just wish I knew what she was thinking. She is on the phone constantly. "I did hear her say she was worried about whomever she is on the phone with and that she tried something a couple of times and that she could say" and then she walked out the door.
She told the kids that she has plans to do something today while they are with me.
