Hi again.....well I think this must be the final thing that could happen...My H lost his job today. So it is finally over. I don't think that he can sink any lower. I have to hope this is his rock bottom but I suppose there are more things that could happen. Any suggestions on how much worse it could get?

I am feeling numb. I am not upset; I am not crying. I think I should be doing these things but I actually barely even care about the whole thing anymore. It is just so exhausting.

I had a bit of a fit tonight. I had planned to go see a movie (Salt) by myself. I just need to get out and do things on my own for a couple of hours. my mom came down to watch my D and then she decided not to go to sleep. I can't keep her in her crib anymore because she can just climb out.

I just ended up losing it and screaming at my mom to go home and having to take my D up to my room and sleep with her until she fell asleep. She was asleep and in her crib by 5-10 min after sleeping in my room.

i feel so tied down and trapped....like a prisoner in my own home. It sucks because I shouldn't feel like that and i should want to be with my D every waking minute.

M=42
H=51
Common-law 6yr
Children: 11yr old daughter (previous marrIage) 6yr old son
Bomb dropped January 2013