H texted me tonight to say "plan on me picking up S after church on Sunday". It broke my heart b/c this is what it is coming down to and what I have to get used to. I don't want to ever miss a minute with S and already miss so much b/c I work full time. And now, to have to share him with H too, just makes me so sad. But I sucked it up as this is the reality now, and just said ok and to text me when he's on his way that day (this is my first text to him all week since it was finally about S. I'm very proud of myself for sticking with it!). Given H's track record tho, I may not even have to worry about it since he always seems to "oversleep", but we'll see. I'm glad he's taking him after church too, but really, it's not like he even gets up before we get home anyways. It's all still a bit lonely, but I'm dealing with it. It's definitely better than the alternative of being in a R that's a lie with H cheating on me.
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
