Well it has been a few days since I posted on my thread so here's an update - really not much to report but here goes.
Updating on the W's new credit card, it does appear that the charge was for a gift she gave me last month so I am going to put that to rest - not that I was overly concerned about it because I really have taken the attitude that we are separated so she can pretty much do whatever she wants, who am I to care or tell her otherwise.
I continue to set myself up for unrealistic expectations that are based on my assumption that she is interested in reconciling. For example, I am leaving to go out of town for the next 9 days. I will be taking our two D's with me. She will be staying in my house while I am gone to look after things. I had hoped that maybe she might decide to stay tonight, but that did not happen. She came over for dinner and then left to go back to her place. I'm trying to figure out my own emotions about this - I'm not devastated that she didn't stay, but it would have been nice. I guess I'm just looking for direction and I really won't get it until we both sit down and discuss what our plan is regarding reconciling or divorcing. For me I think having the physical intimacy a couple of weeks ago has awoken a desire to have closeness with someone, to be in a relationship again - I really haven't had one for more than 2 years now. I'm not even sure it should be with her - but I know that I miss being with someone who actually cares about me and more importantly wants to be with me.
Well I am obviously rambling and I need to get to sleep - I have an early morning ahead of me.
