Great job! It's a pain in the butt, and it takes soooo much time, but you sure are a trooper!
Aww thanks Time! You know what kind of tipped the scale for me? While we were on holidays last month, I woke up early and looked over at him while he was still sleeping and realized 'Oh my god if I give up and leave, I'll never know what he looks like when his hair's all grey.' I had to almost stuff my face into my pillow to keep from crying.
I know... it likely sounds so ridiculous! Everyone always says 'but you can't throw away the last 'x' number of years of your life together!'. And I'm sure again that it sounds odd but the thought of that didn't bother me too much. But the thought of missing out on experiencing how we'd 'end up' in our lives - well that just killed me. I think it was that day I finally was able to start forgiving him and seeing his role in our problems and disconnect with more compassion.
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
Aww thanks Time! You know what kind of tipped the scale for me? While we were on holidays last month, I woke up early and looked over at him while he was still sleeping and realized 'Oh my god if I give up and leave, I'll never know what he looks like when his hair's all grey.' I had to almost stuff my face into my pillow to keep from crying.
